Friday, July 5, 2013


It's Chris's 5year anniversary today and not a day goes by that I don't think about him.

I think about lots of things, I think about what I could have done differently and the only thing I can come up with is boundaries. I won't go into that, but I think that would have helped with our relationship.

There is a father at school who is raising his daughter and every time I see him (he has tattoos, is a bit rough around the edges, but his daughter is the centre of his universe), I see Chris - I see what Chris could have been if he'd gotten his shit together.

And as always I think about GIY (and other similar programs) and how, if I had of known about them, could I have gotten him there? Dad and I would have tried - I would never have given up trying!

It might not have worked for him, but it might have.

Of course none of that matters now, but it's something I always think about.

I love you Chris and hope you have found peace and happiness.


Kim said...

It still matters to me. We can still work on relationships from our side.

Kim Hunter said...

Five years, doesn't feel like five. Feels shorter. I think about Chris too sometimes and I agree with you about him going to GIY.